| 2009
this year i am trying to decrease as much negativity as much as i can. whether is work, friends, or even plain strangers i want to make it through 2009 with little drama as possible. hopefully i can go through with the resolution i decided on.
well night yall.
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| I have been out of work for two weeks and its killing me.
This unexpected vacation was not part of my plans. I did not want to have time off. I did not really do much, but i suppose resting is something. having this time off has given me time to think and re acquaint with others, and has also damaged my mind. I have been thinking way too much and its like hurting me. i kinda wanted alone time for once in my life but its like i can't no matter what. Yeah those 4 days in the hospital i was secluded away from the world. i had no contact with the gays what so ever with the exception of aj's daily calls there. i didn't smoke those days, i wasn't online i just layed there watched tv and get shots every other hour. now i have alll these issues going on... its annoying the crap out of me... =/ i am not asking anyone to save me from this but gahh... i just hate this feeling... sad part is... drawing didn't take the pain away like it normally would.
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| I am already 24 years old. For six years I lived away from home. I had to learn how do things on my own. For about 3 years now I have been living more independent than ever. Struggling everyday to survive, whether its food or thinking how am i going to pay for my bills and go to school and do this or that. =/ Many options were placed on a table for me. seems easy just to pick one and stick with it. But for the past couple of years, some decisions i have been making haven't been the best. I have lost a lot of things that i am probablly not going to get back. I don't want to be stuck like this forever. Yes its time to get off my ass and do something about it cuz sitting around being idle isn't going to do it. I know i can do what i want to do. i did make it this far and i am sure i can make it even further. just have to take it slow. so just bare wif me!
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| i am going to make little changes and see if anything comes of it... lets see what happens.
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